Selfish

2 months... of bliss, happiness, joy and whatever adjectives that mean happy - will soon be over. This makes me realize that one must really cherish what we have, before we realize that it's too late and it's gone. I am a mix of emotions right now. Something drastic is happening to my life soon, and I'm not sure if I am able to handle it. Don't worry, I'm fine, it's just that some circumstance is going to change and I'm really not sure if I am able to cope with it. I have been so used to this state of bliss, that I'm stubbornly unwilling to relinquish whatever that I have. But, at the same time, I have to be understanding, sensible and selfless. Yes, selfless is the key to this hornet's nest. I am convincing myself again and again that this is the right thing to do, yet every so often, I just want to break down and be selfish.

Can I just be selfish for once?

P/S: Please don't ask me what's happening. I shall reveal when the time is right. Now, it's just too painful to even think about it.